Living With Bi-Polar : Worrying When Happy
Living with Bi-Polar Depression has its fair of struggles but one of the hardest things for me to deal with is worrying when I am happy. For most people being happy is a positive thing. It is something that we all strive for because who purposely wants to spend their days miserable and sad. However, for me being happy brings added anxiety to my days.
Why do I worry when I am happy? The answer is simple yet complex at the same time. The simple answer is that I worry because I don’t know if I am going into a manic phase. The complex answer is that when living with bi-polar,elevated moods can be a sign that you are going into a manic phase and your life (and the lives of those around you) is likely to be turned upside down.
This worry makes it hard to enjoy the “good days” for what they are and instead leaves me analyzing every thing I do, say, and think. This worry quickly ruins any “good day” that I am having and will often overshadow anything positive going on. The worry then starts to lead you down a trail that you don’t want to go and before I know it I find myself back in dark place.
I want to enjoy my life as much as possible, even while living with bi-polar depression. This is attainable to some degree and over the past few months I have been working on some ways to lessen the worry and embrace the happiness for what it is. I have by no means reached a point of no worry but I am finding that I worry less during the happy times. Less worry means that I can enjoy my “good days” and this helps me during my bad days.
Living With Bi-Polar : Tips to Help Decrease the Worrying When Happy
- Identify why you are feeling happy? If you are having a hard time identifying a reason, reach out and ask someone you know how they think you are behaving. Sometimes I need my husband to point out the things that I am enjoying because I get so used to going for periods of time without much emotion.
- Focus on the positive aspects of being happy. Make a mental list of the benefits of enjoying the happiness that you are feeling. They can even be written down so you have them to look at the next time you start to worry.
- Reach out to your support person. Letting your support person/people know what you are experiencing is a great way to put someone else on alert for you. If they notice that you are entering a manic phase and not just enjoying a “good day(s)”,they can talk to you about it so you can take the appropriate steps.
- Put yourself in a Worry Time-Out. Set a specific amount of time to enjoy your happiness and don’t dwell on it until that time is over. I often find that I don’t even go back to worrying when the time is up.
- Relax and take one day at a time. Give yourself a break and tell yourself that there is only so much you can do. Living with Bi-polar depression is a constant journey and as long as you are taking proper care of yourself, there are going to be things you can’t control. Acknowledge the journey that you are on, take a deep breathe, enjoy the happiness that has come your way.
I am still learning to put these tips into practice. The one thing I have learned while living with bi-polar depression is that each day is a full of surprises and new challenges.
Do you worry when you are happy or have your own personal struggles living with bi-polar depression? How do you help yourself cope and take control of your days?
For more information about Living With Bi-Polar Depression you can visit the National Institute For Mental Health.
If you are someone you know are struggling there is help. Reach out to a doctor,nurse, or other healthcare professional. If you don’t think it can wait and is an emergency, head to the nearest Emergency Room or call 911.